To want a baby

[SylviaPsyoplath]

Ive never wanted children, love the ones in my life but never for me.
I was in a really abusive relationship when I was 18, was pregnant and that pregnancy ended in quite violent circumstances.
Im now 47. With someone who makes my world shine.
I wish I could turn back time as I now see why people have a child together.

Not really a AIBU just need some viper wake up call.

I think it's ok to feel sad but to also recognise that you wouldn't be who you are, with the person you are with, and preparing for your future together if your life had been different in the past. That is an awful lot to deal with though so some sadness seems a very normal response. You just can't let it consume you to the extent it affects the wonderful life you can have now.

Great response

If you'd had a child with a previous partner you might not have ended up with the partner you have now or you could have the stress of dealing with drama from an ex baby daddy.

Really was.
Thank you

I know
I just dont understand how I never wanted a child and now I want his and we can't.

Thank-you, needed to hear that

Im sorry that you had such a hard time, I'm glad you found your person 😊