I have an 18 month old, DH is on and off useless but has stepped up recently after MANY MANY arguments and talks. But now every time he fucks up something minor, I lose it. I just lose it. It takes me back to him being useless. I can't shake this resentment and rage and complete lack of respect for him. It doesn't help that because he is now doing more, he walks around thinking he is father of the year and talks CONSTANTLY about how much he does (hint: he cooked dinner TWICE this week 😱).
He contributed to a fuck up which cost me an hour of my day today. A day when I'm supposed to get on a flight with my toddler, alone. I haven't slept in weeks (majorly sick then teething child) and I had to a ton of shit to do. And he basically told the nanny to come an hour later. Not because he thought he was correct, it wasn't an accident. She misunderstood something and when she asked him to clarify, he just shrugged and said yes sure because he couldn't be bothered to check.
This happened this morning and I still want to kill him. Made my day so stressful and he didn't give a shit.
I think my marriage is over but I'm not ready for it. I need to calm the fuck down.