I’m probably having abit of a pity party.
I’ve been living with family for over a year, and I’m finally moving out. I do have kids and a partner, so it has been a full house.
Anyway this weekend we had to move items from storage and I mentioned I won’t be around over the weekend. I did leave my room (which is my childhood) room somewhat of a mess with clothes piled up on the bed etc. But I was in and out. Family didn’t help, they haven’t even asked me how things are going - but I’m not too fussed. Came down with a terrible cold and the. Food poisoning so everything slowed down. But me and my partner have spent the whole weekend moving.
When I came back to my family home after 2 days, everything was in bin bags (my DD asked me if my family are disowning me 😅) Fine, I can sort through that. And then I found one bin bag with me and the baby’s things in it and rubbish - things like used tissues, dust etc.
I found some old diaries from when I was a teen and I found that in one of the bags mixed in with rubbish.
Whilst I’m a 30 something year old woman and I should really know better, something in me has been taken back to being that 14 year old teen that didn’t get on with anyone in the family (following a terrible divorce) and the feeling of just not fitting in. Gosh I feel like a big baby.
I don’t really want advice (or maybe I need it) as I feel like I am being unreasonable and I should snap out of it. But has anyone as an adult been taken back to a horrible moment in childhood/teen and just felt numb. I want to physically leave but need to sort through these bags.