Wrong Job stress

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I was recently made redundant, LA closed our school and we were all very heartbroken, still are to be honest. I was support staff, not teaching.

I took this as an opportunity to retrain and move into a new industry. Something I've always been interested in and can get some formal qualifications while working. I've been very excited to get started.

Started working this week and have quickly realised the work side of things isn't for me. It's quite a niche business and doesn't exactly cover the day to day work and training I was looking for. It's not the employers fault, they have been very welcoming and keen to support me.

That just makes it worse that I feel I can't go back on Monday! I've come home every day in tears, can't sleep, I'm 100% sure this isn't for me.

Aibu not to go back on Monday?

You have to give it time. It sounds like your employer is supportive, so relax, and see if you and the job grow together.
New jobs are always stressful, but they get better

Why do you feel you can’t go back? Even if it’s not for you, go and get all the experience you can and work hard whilst applying for other jobs. You’re always better off applying for jobs whilst you already have a job.

Yes you can’t just stop turning up. Talk to them - I did this just as redundancy and after 3 months it was clear it wasn’t working and it was agreed that it simply ended there and I went home.

so it maybe you go in Monday and leave but you should talk to them

Thanks for replies so far. I just know the job isn't for me. I feel really embarrassed that I don't want to return but have had to stifle my emotions every day, just about making it to the car before I'm crying. I know if I speak to them I'll be in tears and don't want them to think less of me. I'm a stable worker, have a strong work ethic and give 100% but just know my own mind. I know I have to go back and at least try to explain my reasons to them, it would be unfair not to, I suppose it's just the anxiety of that process is worrying me.