I don’t know what’s wrong with me at the moment but I’m in a constant feeling of eveything being bleak and overwhelming. I find working from home quite isolating and I’ve lost all confidence in my appearance and who I am as a person. It’s like all the colour has drained from my life and I keep having horrible and weird flashbacks to things that happened years ago, like lots of bad memories coming back to haunt me. I feel like the world is pretty scary at the moment and I just can’t feel present with anything. I feel like I’m in a bubble going through the motions. I see friends and family living life and progressing, whilst I feel totally stuck where I am.
I feel guilty for writing this as nothing in my life is ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’. My parents are aging quite a lot and seem to have really taken a dip mentally and physically recently, which has been tough to see. I think I’m feeling sad about missing what my life was like before and feeling an impending weight of seeing my parents getting older.
Does anyone else have times when it all just feels so heavy? I keep trying to lift myself but end up back to square one. AIBU and keeping myself in this slump? Do I need some tough love to snap out of it and is there anything I could be doing to try and ease it?
thank you - just feeling a bit lost