I’ve been working so bloody hard, but it’s just not been working.
I finally thought I was at the right company and doing quite well, but then I was made redundant.
now I’m facing call after call with recruiters drilling me about the last 5 years in my career and it’s absolutely brutal.
I have quite a bit of experience now, but the last 5 years ( since I became a mum ) have been a bit difficult for me.
I work in sales essentially and the last 5 years have been tough because I was on mat leave or I was off sick with HG during pregnancy.
when I returned from my first Mat leave, I was given a rubbish set of accounts and was unable to make much work. So I left after 6-7 months. The company I went to after this was ok, but essentially I spent most of my time there off sick / on maternity leave. I was there for 2 years.
that company then went bankrupt and I moved to another company and that didn’t work out at all. I had a year contract there and I decided to leave once that was up, because it was such a shit show.
I had a few months off and then found my current place and have worked my absolute arse off and just got made redundant.
I have worked the hardest I’ve ever worked in my life in the last few years, but just haven’t been as successful as before. In my industry it’s all about the company you’re at and the accounts you have and I just have not been able to make it work. Well, apart from where I was just made redundant from. The company before that, I worked very very hard, but they literally had no clue what they were doing, so it was just impossible.
I am scared to make any moves now tbh as I don’t want it to be the wrong one. I’m also thinking of just packing it all in and not going back into that world and starting my own thing. But that’s risky of course. My career has been pretty lucrative. It’s high risk and high reward, but I’m just feeling so disheartened by everything that’s happened.