Had a baby 9 months ago had terrible birth with lack of support from family and a self employed husband who was working 24/7 left me
struggling and having PND. Husband and I went through a rough patch because of the depression I felt my husband didn’t fancy me anymore we weren’t having sex. We spoke about it and his reasonings where valid we had a one bedroom flat with a baby who cried all night every night I was crying 24/7 and he was worried about me too much. I kept mentioning pain in my stitches which he thought meant no sex. This has all been sorted we now are out the trenches have moved too a house and I couldn’t feel happier. During that time he left his phone playing white noise on in the bedroom so I decided to look at his phone I regret it at the time as I found nothing except some porn history. This didn’t bother me as I watch porn we both do and are open to the fact we do. I snooped twice during that time but confessed when we had a big chat a few weeks later. He was devastated that I felt I couldn’t trust him although i that wasn’t the reason I did it. I angry just felt angry and upset and was looking for reasons to be angry and upset. Therapy and reaching out for help has helped start resolving these issues thankfully. Today while googling something in bed I asked to borrow his phone as mine was down stairs he gave it to me but then I realised his history was empty when I tried to go back to a previous site I was on. He has it set to automatically delete. This has made me think the worst why would he have it set to that. I’m worried if I ask him he will accuse me of not trusting him and it will undo any work we have done on our relationship. I can’t think of any reason why he would need it set to that it also his work and personal phone. Aibu to think the worst