I feel I’ll never meet someone I can build a life with following the end of a relationship where I thought he was the one.
Before that I was in a LTR where just as we were moving in together he cheated and left. It took me 5 years to get over it.
So then when I met my recent ex I was determined to choose differently. After 2 years he felt like family to me and we were best friends, my family adored him and he was the one to being up kids and commitment. Then he blindsided me and told me had all these mental health issues. Tried to downplay the seriousness of our relationship which devastated me and hasn’t spoken to me since.
I feel like love isn’t for me. It’s something other people have figured out. I also don’t see how I can trust another man.