I’ve booked a 2 week holiday to Corfu and I’m travelling solo. Just me! I felt so good when I booked it, I thought I was so brave & courageous, & I’m so devastated that these doubts are creeping in. I’m a 53 year old woman & I went through a separation 7yrs ago. He left. It’s taken me years to get over it, I was devastated. My only daughter is 30 now & lives abroad with her partner. I don’t have much family & it’s been a huge adjustment living alone. I took in student this year & I’ve loved having them, breathing life into the house. It’s the money they brought in that’s paying for this holiday. I was beginning to feel like I’ve come out the other side (or I think I am).
So in March I booked this holiday to Corfu for 2 weeks in September. It’s my first holiday in 8 years. It’s almost upon me now. I’d imagined strolls on the beach at sunset, peacefulness, reading, swimming in the sea, beautiful food, wonderful locals.
The closer it gets to C Day the more anxious I become. I’m afraid I’ll get there, be paralysed by irrational fear, never leave my accommodation & count down the days until I come home. Worse, I’m afraid I will get to the day & won’t get on the plane, almost sabotage myself.
It’s the fear that is so powerful, but I don’t even know what I’m afraid of. I think it’s the sadness of what life is like now compared to what it used to be.
I’ve booked accommodation in Messonghi ( which I can cancel up to a week before travel). I’m nervous I’ve booked the wrong location for a solo traveller looking for peace. I’ve a very limited budget so I’m nervous about it. I read about Agios Gordios being beautiful but it’s pricier. Recommendations anyone has for a peaceful place beside a beach I’d be very grateful. But also, moral support would be wonderful for me to lean on to bolster my confidence & help me to grab hold of this holiday with both hands and begin to feel alive again.