For as long as I can remember I have never been scared of dying and often welcome the thought.

[0BLIVIOUS]

I’d like to understand why people are so eager to live? People with huge health anxiety and terrified about doing all sorts of things in case they die.
I feel like I have (in the past) put myself in very dangerous situations because I never really cared. The only reason I care now is because I have children and wouldn’t want to leave them.
sometimes I think dying would be great.
I hope this isn’t upsetting or insulting to anyone, just trying to understand why I feel like this

I suppose I’m interested in whether the fear of dying is something that is instinctive. I mean we are meant to want to survive aren’t we? That’s how the human race continues

I'm so very sorry for your loss :( <3

I’m sorry you’ve had such tragedy. I’ve had bad things too, but I would say the good has outweighed the bad for me.
I often think it would be easier to die, but the guilt of ending it would stop me from ever ending my life purposefully. But an accident would be fine

I don't fear death itself but I feel very depressed when I think about its inevitability, and as someone else said, the fact that I'm at best halfway through life. This fear has magnified hugely since having my DS. More than my own death I fear his. This has induced horrid health anxiety in me.

I feel the same OP and always have.

In the past I've made some not unserious suicide attempts and to be honest can't say it would never happen again. I just have always had a general apathy to life, I have a loving family and friends but have always been on the thought that when it's my time it's my time. My ex H had massive health anxiety and honestly I never understood it.

I'm currently 34 weeks pregnant and I'm sure I'll feel different when the baby is here.

I've had enough too, but I have a child and I must keep going for them.

I'm the same, never been afraid of death. As a teen, I overdosed intentionally and was looking forward to slipping into a quiet death as I was so unhappy. After I was saved by medics, I never felt depressed and didn't feel I needed to do that again.

I did continue to live in an unhealthy way, smoking/ junk UPF food/ alcohol/ no exercise etc. After my kids were born, I quit smoking. Took me another 10yrs (in my 40s) to make the decision to look after myself better, whole foods and exercise. I'm still not afraid of death and accept that cancer will likely kill me but I'd like to be healthier until then.

I don’t want to die, and the idea of leaving my children without a mother at their ages breaks my heart - but also, I have zero will to survive. my partner always jokes that I could trip in 2 inches of water and be like ‘well, I guess my time is up’ and drown rather than simply stand.
i don’t know how to explain it really.

We’ve had lots of tragic deaths. Two sets of cousins lost their mums while still at primary (my 2 aunties 2 years apart to cancer), my twin sister died when we were little, and when I was 14 years old my 16yo cousin died suddenly (medical negligence). Much loved grandparents too but they were in their 90s having lived a good life.

I’d be one of the early zombies in a zombie apocalypse. I really can’t face the tip toeing around trying to be quiet. I’m far too clumsy. I’ve told dh (who would survive for ages) to just let me go to the zombies and remember me fondly 😂

I’ve got a terminal illness and tbh I’ve made my peace with it. I don’t want to be in pain or to endure endless months of pity visits from relatives I don’t otherwise see (also painful!)

I’m desperately sad to leave my kids, but this is the hand we’ve been dealt. TBH life in increasingly becoming more complex and I’ve realised I can’t actually be arsed with most people. I’ve had a great life, been to beautiful countries - sure I could go to more but one blue ocean is much like the next! I’ve had the best husband, family, friends, jobs and home - I feel like it all becomes killing time and just repeating stuff after a while. So I don’t mind really. I’ll go out on a high.

I'm scared of what happens after @0BLIVIOUS

I mean is it like being asleep or are we reincarnated? Do we 'dream'? What if we get stuck in limbo or end up a ghost?

Oh okay. That’s interesting, thank you.

Scared of nothingness? Or hell? Or just the unknown?

Oh I see thank you!

I'm the same since my dh died but have young adult dc who would be devastated etc.

Interesting, thank you for sharing. I want to say sorry about your illness and I am but it sounds like you don’t mind.
I honestly wouldn’t mind getting a terminal illness which probably sounds insensitive

Thanks @OpenThatWindow that's a good way to look at it. I could maybe do with some counselling around my fear of death

I find it really hard that we all only have one life, that’s it forever. Will never have another one. I find it hard to accept that at the end of my children’s’ lives I won’t be able to be with them and comfort them when they’ll need me most.

I don’t feel scared about dying in itself - I’m disabled with complex health needs and in chronic pain all the time - but I do worry about leaving my dc. But - I’ve witnessed 3 close relatives dying of bowel cancer and I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy- and actually my Mum (one of them) was my worst enemy. It’s horrific and traumatising. The media makes it sound like people drift off into a well medicated sleep and none of the deaths I witnessed were like that at all. So that has made me terrified of dying, of being in uncontrolled pain despite a syringe driver and then gurgling away for days with a death rattle from my lungs, looking horrific. It changes you if you’ve seen those things.

Thanks for this thread- there was one similar few months ago that descended in to posters saying how ungrateful and selfish people who feel like this are.

I feel similar to many of you, I'm around for my kids now, my mother died when I was young and it made things very difficult. I saw her die and it was awful as PP says but also she had been ill for a long time and had decided to stop treatment, which I understood and respected.

I remember watching a tv drama and there were lots of chasing and hiding from people trying to kill characters and it was the first time I realised that most people really, really don't want to die- and how little story there would be if everyone just surrendered to it all!

I am absolutely at peace with dying, I have a lovely life and I'd not consider myself depressed or suicidal at all.