Leaving my child

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Hi. Long story short . Not going into details of my traumatic life,for everyone is different how bad can it get . Anyways my point is I have a 5 year old. Me and her dad live together , that’s it . No one is happy ,but no one can survive without each other . we are not Rich or well off at all . Living basic life . How do we escape or let say how do I escape . Talking for all of us . My thoughts are shall I leave for 2months and go back to live in my hometown . Just to get myself back as I am the worst I have been . Having drinks during the day while being with her . Just to make myself survive through the day . And I never used to . I just want to escape to save myself for her but not sure if she would be ok with that, how would she feel ? Would that be my worst decision? What else I can do? Any suggestions welcome 🙏
thanks

Sorry to hear you're struggling. Is there any particular reason you're struggling with life with your 5 year old? I think without knowing that, it's difficult to offer advice.

You need to seek support for MH. I wouldn’t leave your child

@SomethingInnocuousForNow yes unhappy relationship with her father could be number one but because I have turned to having drinks, everyone blames me because of that not because of anything else .But previously I didn’t drink like that

If you are drinking during the day when you should be caring for your child (where is her dad?) you clearly need some outside support or help.

Do you work? Is DD in school?
Where is your partner during the day?

How are your finances? You can't drink during the day with a 5 year old. If you have any extra money, I'd be putting it towards holiday clubs / activities, some home help, some counselling and try to get this sorted. Basically, if you can, throw money at the situation rather than walking away from your child for months.

Are you an alcoholic? Running away won't help, can you attend an AA meeting in your area, many member are there to help.

Go to your gp / health visitor/ aa ,but don't leave your child ,you could do damage that nothing can repair.

Please don’t leave your child. That will have a huge impact on her despite your good intentions. You sound quite stuck and desperate. The drinking needs to stop as soon as you can and you need to do whatever you can within your power to make that happen. Please seek help. Then, once you have support in place for you MH and drinking, put a plan together for how to escape. It doesn’t sound like you’re thinking particularly clearly and in the best place to make good decisions. This isn’t going to be quick or easy, but it is doable if you find the right support and want this enough for yourself and your daughter. Good luck.

Is your husband aware that you are drinking during the day?

Are guys Americans , what is AA

FYI I don’t get blackout in front of her ,I just have drinks during,I know it’s doesn’t change anything but I don’t want u think that i leave her alone no .

Are You and your partner in an agreed separation? Is he being abusive or do you feel stuck?

Alcoholics Anonymous.

OP, the telephone number for Alcoholics Anonymous is 0800 917 7650. It in the UK and there will be no judgement.

Depending on the severity of your alcohol problem, the best thing for your daughter might be for you to move out while you get sober. This needs to be handled carefully and methodically. It should not be you running away unless you feel you are a danger to yourself or your child.

I would start by talking to your GP about your mental health and calling AA. AA isn’t a perfect program, but it is prolific and easy to access.

If you had a good relationship with your husband, I would suggest talking to him about how to handle focusing on your mental health and recovery while also prioritizing your child’s needs. Since you don’t, I am going to ask if you have a trusted family member who could help you navigate the next steps.