I'm mentally ill aswell as disabled and my partner is my carer...he's also 15 years older than me. I do alot of the cleaning and looking after the kids even though I struggle and my partner watches telly all day when I ask him to do somthing or point out he hasn't done somthing like put my new washing line up so I can dry the washing he will flip and say I'm dragon that nags at him all the time. I brought my washing line in March lol... Still not up I'm. Not very good with tools as my hands are shaky. If he doesn't his grown up daughter one week because she doing somthing with her mum or she got a new bf so she been busy with him my partner will take it out on me. If I start suffer bad with my mental health my partner will call me a bully and flip at me for crying....
And even though I have attachment issues through past truma as I went through truma all my childhood and teenage years he threatens to leave me and says he don't want me and he's never coming back just to upset me.
I want to leave him but I don't want to make my step son homeless and I have frequent seziuzers so I don't think they let my little girl without someone there
I'm also worried as I'm pregnant and my hormones make emotional which makes my partner worse like today even though he want to try for the baby when I get upset he tells me to kill the baby as he don't want a kid with weirdo like me....
I don't know what to do I feel like I'm in hell and I feel like I'm trapped.
I just feel like I can't take much more I feel like I don't want to be here any more and everyone I'd better off without because I get told everyday.
Any advice?