Ex boyfriends - young “love”

[Chocice35]

this is really strange but also I’d love to know if anyone else has ever experienced similar. I am 28 years old with my own family, very happy etc.
i had my first boyfriend for a few years when I was 13/14. At that time I thought I was so deeply in love with him however now looking back, he wasn’t very kind, controlling and I’d say a narcissist. I used to have to lie about being with my friends, he would constantly block my number, call me names etc, keep our relationship a secret. It was like this for 3 years I’d say. The relationship finally ended in year 10/11.
sometimes I don’t think about him for months on end but then other times I could have multiple dreams where he’s in them.
there’s been times where a couple of years later I’ve seen him on nights out and we’ve been flirty (I was around 17/18) but then we’ve never been in contact
i have only seen him around probably a handful of times like in a Supermarket etc but I’d love to forget about him completely!

I think most people feel this way about their first love. I’m sure he wasn’t a narcissist, just a teenage boy who hadn’t developed adult emotional responses. They’re usually dickheads who broke your heart. They don’t say ‘The first cut is the deepest’ for nothing!

I used to wonder about mine quite regularly. He died very suddenly from a brain haemorrhage in his early thirties. Very sad.

@R0ckandHardPlace thats very true to be honest! Although have heard of his girlfriends later on and he didn’t seem to sound any different …
wow that is truly awful, I bet it’s very hard to think about him