Hi
I live with hubby and 90 year old mother. I have recently been diagnosed with autoimmune inflammatory arthritis which is not responding to treatment and affecting my mobility. I have two younger siblings. Since my Dad died 20 years ago I have never liked being in my family alone without my husband as I feel constantly pit down. I have a close relationship with my mother but although she cares about me her own emotional needs have always come first. Historically she tells me my thoughts and feelings are wrong to the extent she told me I was getting too upset about my stillborn baby
i have always wondered in my head ‘ am I making this up’ etc but my feelings are ones that make me emotionally withdraw. I had an eating disorder in my teens and used to dream of stabbing my mother
A few years ago my brother was extremely verbally aggressive to me and it’s taken a while for me to forgive ( I always try to do the right thing)
two dats ago it was my brothers child’s 18th. Mr and hubby went along. All fine except my mother was carping and bitching at me all way through.
im fed up of being nice. I feel broken. I’m in tears. My recent steroid injection has not worked.
why do I get picked on
im not verbally quicksand if I say anything it’s oh she’s being silly
i love them all but I can’t understand why they do this