To feel like a failure?

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So, I left my ex because he was selfish and lazy and although it was the right decision at the time, I have had to move back to my parents house, the kids go their dads twice a week and I am left to do everything else. I am currently off work sick as I feel like such a failure and it is really getting me down. Ex has moved on, holidays monthly etc and I am struggling to get by. I know I will come out the other side of this but it’s really hard when you’re in it.

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!
Hang in there. You have 100% done the right thing by your kids and one day they will realise exactly what you've sacrificed for them. Keep on keeping on, and remember, this too shall pass. 💐

Thank you, I really appreciate that. He has met somebody else and seems happy. I on the other hand feel like I have took a massive step back by coming back to my parents and I cannot give the kids everything they once had but I don’t struggle. I don’t want to be off work but I cannot concentrate and have been put on a PIP due to the way I have been so it felt like the best thing to do. I have been so consistent at work the past 8 years and I just thought enough was enough, I am worried if I will even get paid etc yet all my ex thinks about is when he is going to his next festival, booking his next flight, it seems so unfair.

It really isn’t where I wanted to be at 35 but I could not carry on in that relationship, I was so lonely even though I was supposed to be with somebody who loved me. He basically did the all the things he is doing now and couldn’t see a problem with it (minus the other woman, I think)

You’re not a failure, you weren’t happy in your relationship so you left.
You need to stop focusing on what your ex is doing though and look to your own future.
-Were you married, are the finances from your split sorted?
-Are you looking after yourself? Eating well, sleeping well, exercise… these will all help your wellbeing
-Work out what you need to do to get back to work, you probably need to work full time now you’re a single mum. Is your ex paying you child support?
-Work out what you need to save for a deposit on your own place.
Good luck OP 👍🏻