So I havent told anyone so thought I would announce it on here and ask for recommendations on what to do.
I've been throwing up deliberately after eating again.
I suffered with this illness when I was 16 17 and fell pregnant at 18 and I just stopped for that reason.
Recently life has been awful and I only eat once a day but without fail I always "have" to go to toilet after and stick my fingers down my throat.
I feel disgusting and pathetic and lately I've been feeling very ill
I know I'm doing it to have some weird sense of control over something in my life.
I was doing it on and off for years but since my mum died suddenly and I couldn't save her (heart attack, she was almost 90) it's a daily thing.
I don't know how on earth I can bring this up to a gp. I havent lost weight and also have bowel issues so obviously I'm keeping something down.
I feel so ashamed and I was wondering if any older people have had a replase that's bad and if so what do you recommend.
When I look online it's mainly aimed at teenagers and young adults which makes me feel even more pathetic