I had a hard life. My dad wanted nothing to do with me. My mother was extremely abusive to me. I had no grandparents. I had not one person that loved me.
When you grow up in a terrible family, it makes you prone to abuse, and i was sexually abused as a child aswell.
To add to that, when you grow up in an awful family, instead of it making you receive kindness and support, it makes you more prone to bullying. So i got abuse at home and bullying at school.
I often lie awake thinking why me, was i an asshole in a past life? After the recent air india crash i thought, why did so many happy people who were enjoying life die, and i am still here suffering and hating life. Why not take me instead of them. It is all so unfair.