Not sure what to do

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my mental state been so bad that I have decided to put my child into tea time club at school . Just to get two hrs extra of not having to look after her in the afternoon before her father comes home . What else I can do . I am struggling to look after her . The only support I have is her father who comes home latish . And doesn’t get my state . I have not been able to clean and cook as I barely function. I work part time and barely make it through that. If I can get an excuse I will . Then come home and bed rot. If I had a chance I would go somewhere where I can be alone and not be around noise and mess . It’s triggering me .At the same time I can’t get myself together . This has been the worst of all the times . I can’t even explain how messy and heavy my brain feels .
what can I do . I need to escape . But how can u without money :/
I am feeling like the worst mother .

Have you spoken to your GP about how yiu are feeling? It sounds like you are suffering with depression and it may be time to get some help.

edited to say this does not make you a bad mother but one who is struggling badly and needs support

I’m so sorry you are struggling
Have you spoken to the Dr? Antidepressants (or a change of brand/dose if you already take them) could really help things not look so bleak. You will then be able to see more clearly what your options are. You are not the worst mother. You are a mother struggling, who has done the best for her DD by putting her in a safe, caring environment, whilst you are not able to fully look after her whilst alone. Go easy on yourself. I hope things improve for you soon.

Definitely go to the dr it could be something as simple as your anemic or your thyroid.

Another vote for talking to your doctor.

Sounds like you need a bit of help in the 'getting yourself together', honestly the Dr will make a difference, it did for me