So I've been with my lovely boyfriend for 2 months. We met online, and were talking on and off of there for nearly a year if that's relevant. But we had our first date 2 months ago. We message multiple times daily and see each other a couple of times a week - sleepovers, days out, - lots of time together. We had a disagreement earlier in the week and I actually feared I would lose him, and I was so so upset just thinking about it. I think I have realised I am batshit crazy in love with him. The sex is amazing and I feel we know each other really well, and we are really comfortable with each other.
My question is would it be completely insane to tell him?? I feel like Im going to explode, but could this just make him run away? And maybe Im wrong, maybe its just lust (we do have amazing chemistry). When he first kissed me, I have never felt anything like it. I realise I sound ridiculous, but I don't know what to do with these feelings. Im feeling very overwhelmed, happy and scared all at the same time.
I'm 50 by the way, and was in an abusive marriage for 21 years. I think Im just pinching myself about how I can feel all the feels for such a lovely man. Since the divorce I have had a few short relationships with lovely men, but I ended them due to lack of chemistry. I was really beginning to worry that I am only attracted to men that treat me like garbage so this is quite a new and wonderful experience.