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Am I a grief grabber?

48 replies

throweay · 11/06/2025 00:00

An old friend of mine committed suicide a few days ago.

We were close as kids at around the ages of 11-13 (I’m 25 now) and we went to a couple of events together as older teenagers, but didn’t speak outside of that.

We haven’t been proper ‘friends’ for probably close to a decade, but would always be friendly and say hello when we bumped into each other. No reason, we just drifted.

I didn’t know anything about her, her life or what she was up to before she died or in the many years prior. We still lived in the same town.

I am really upset by it, I have cried. I feel it isn’t my place to cry, I didn’t even know her!

I don’t know about funeral details, but would want to attend if possible. I’m worried her family/friends would be like, who the hell is that?

I don’t even know what I’m asking. AIBU to be so upset/knocked by this? AIBU to attend the funeral?

OP posts:
muddyford · 11/06/2025 07:53

There is a whole cohort of friends I haven't seen since secondary school, 45 years ago; I would still be grieving their deaths in your position. Such relationships may not endure adult life but their sheer intensity in the past makes them important to us.

MagnoliaTreeBlossom · 11/06/2025 08:01

@throweay There are no restrictions on who is affected by a bereavement. Grief is a natural response.

You did know her as she was part of your childhood. You have shared experiences and memories. Losing touch doesn't erase these. The loss you feel is genuine.

Absolutely go to her funeral and write a note within a card to her family and share your memories of her.

You are not a grief grabber. You are processing the loss of a childhood friend.

hedgerunner · 11/06/2025 08:05

Being upset and affected by it is natural. I find that when people who are the same age as me die it always hits home. My childhood friend died of cancer but I hadn’t seen her in over 20 years. I was still upset about it. I didn’t attend the funeral as I was living in another country at the time, but it’s fine if you want to.

MattCauthon · 11/06/2025 08:08

A grief grabber is someone who makes it all about them. Thays not this. You are upset and sad which is an entirely.appropriate and understandable reaction.

Go to the funeral if you can.

holaquetal · 11/06/2025 08:15

VestanPance · 11/06/2025 00:28

When my teenage son died, he had a lot of people attend his funeral. Past swimming teacher, his old Cub Scout leader. I thought that was very kind to remember him years on. It gave me hope that if people remembered him years later, they would continue to remember him and that would keep his memory alive - and that he mattered.

Please go to the funeral, it shows you care now and treasured them even if it was for a short period.

I have been in a similar situation and absolutely second this. So sorry for your loss and it is completely ok to feel this way in what is a tragic situation.

KeineBedeutung · 11/06/2025 08:17

You had a meaningful connection with this person and, despite not really being in touch more recently, you're shocked and saddened by their death - I'd say that's a perfectly normal human reaction. Go to the funeral if you can, if not then send a card - 'You might not remember me, but X and we're friends at school. I was so sorry to hear of her passing, and am thinking of you all at this sad time.' Regardless of whether they do remember you, it'll surely be a positive to know you care.

Ophy83 · 11/06/2025 08:19

When my uncle died young, someone he'd known from church but had moved to the US a decade earlier and hadn't seen since posted a lengthy post on Facebook about how devastated she was, tagging him in it so it came up on all our notifications (her parents still lived nearby so she must have heard on the grapevine). She got loads of messages of condolence. My aunty hadn't put anything on social media yet. That was grief grabbing.

Attending a funeral and sending a condolence card is appropriate and will hopefully provide the family with some comfort. Perhaps include a memory of her that you have that her family will not have known about

MissDoubleU · 11/06/2025 08:20

A tragic event like this is upsetting even if you barely knew the person. You have shared fond memories of this person from very young.

It’s a horrible thing to experience a suicide and no, you are in no way stealing from anyone’s grief by having your own. There’s enough devastation for everyone who was touched by their life to feel just as sad as they need to. Please don’t miss the funeral.

Swiftie1878 · 11/06/2025 08:22

throweay · 11/06/2025 00:00

An old friend of mine committed suicide a few days ago.

We were close as kids at around the ages of 11-13 (I’m 25 now) and we went to a couple of events together as older teenagers, but didn’t speak outside of that.

We haven’t been proper ‘friends’ for probably close to a decade, but would always be friendly and say hello when we bumped into each other. No reason, we just drifted.

I didn’t know anything about her, her life or what she was up to before she died or in the many years prior. We still lived in the same town.

I am really upset by it, I have cried. I feel it isn’t my place to cry, I didn’t even know her!

I don’t know about funeral details, but would want to attend if possible. I’m worried her family/friends would be like, who the hell is that?

I don’t even know what I’m asking. AIBU to be so upset/knocked by this? AIBU to attend the funeral?

It’s tragic because of her age and the manner of her death. Don’t beat yourself up!
And I’m sure her family will be grateful that many people loved/liked her enough to turn up and pay their respects. They won’t be second-guessing how well you knew her more recently. Go to the funeral.

Galaxyandcadburys773 · 11/06/2025 08:23

Andoutcomethewolves · 11/06/2025 01:20

I'm so sorry OP. I lost seven(!) friends to suicide or overdoses last year (plus many more over the years). Some were closer to me than others but my impression was the families were just grateful to have people show up to show their respects. They wanted to know their family member was cared for (particularly in a suicide situation). Nothing worse than a funeral due to suicide and nobody bothers to show up (I have been to a funeral like this - just me, the mum and dad and an uncle - and I think his mum was almost more distraught about the fact nobody else cared enough to turn up than she was about him dying)

That's awful 😥

Justlovedogs · 11/06/2025 08:26

What@FlightCommanderPRJohnsonsays. Grief grabbing is making it all about you, posting on social media about how upset you are with no thought for the family. What you're experiencing is quite a normal reaction, as us attending the funeral.
So sorry you're for your loss.

VictoriaEra2 · 11/06/2025 08:33

I’ve just buried someone extremely close to me. It gave me huge comfort to see people attend his funeral - people we hadn’t seen for years. I think fondly of them all for coming. It makes a difference.

ThreePointOneFourOneFiveNine · 11/06/2025 08:34

Going to the funeral shows the family that you give a shit. Believe me no one wants to sit in the funeral of their loved one that no one came to, it hurts.

My grandmas brother his kids did not bother coming to her funeral and my mum was so hurt by that. However, some of my grandads relatives who I’d never met before drove for hours in convoy to be there and their presence made such a difference. They told stories of how they remembered her when she used to visit them, it was just lovely.

I also went to the funeral of another elderly relative who was a WWII veteran and his regiment sent a representative. So this guy, who had never met the deceased, or heard about him before that week, but just happened to be serving in the same regiment 70 odd years later, came along to pay his respects. It was a really kind gesture and was very much appreciated.

Go to the funeral. If you talk to the family think of a nice memory of your old friend that you can share with them. For those closest to her, seeing people make the effort to show up will mean a lot. It doesn’t matter that you hadn’t seen her recently, it matters that you care, and it will be helpful for her family to know that people care.

YouMustBeTheWeasleys · 11/06/2025 08:47

Suicide is always devastating.

My husband’s cousin died by suicide a few years ago - husband hadn’t seen him since they were children and I had obviously never met him. I found the funeral harrowing and found myself starting to cry in the service . I felt like I didn’t have the right because I didn’t know him so I wiped the tears away and forced myself to stop, but it was just so very sad - he was only a year or two older than us.

throweay · 11/06/2025 09:16

Derbee · 11/06/2025 00:45

I think family will always appreciate people caring about their loved one enough to want to attend a funeral. It’s pwrfectly ok to feel sad about the loss of a friend, even if they’re a friend from years ago.

I’d be mindful of language though. Your friend died by suicide. “Committed suicide” is a term that many agree should be avoided - it implies criminality and harks back to an era when suicide was considered a crime/sin.

Please forgive my ignorance, thank you for correcting me.

I had no idea, I won’t use that term from now on.

OP posts:
TheSlantedOwl · 11/06/2025 09:18

No you’re not a grief grabber. You knew her and cared for her, she was part of your story, and it’s horribly tragic and shocking.

Feel how you feel. I’m sorry for your loss.

throweay · 11/06/2025 09:19

Thank you all for such lovely comments.

I am going to attend the funeral, if it is open to those beyond close friends and family.

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amooseymoomum · 11/06/2025 09:53

you have memories which should be treasured.
in time her parents may be glad of things like that, to know that she was happy then.

Angrymum22 · 11/06/2025 10:10

No you are not a grief thief.

A grief thief/grabber is one who posts relentlessly and somewhat inappropriately on social media about “there” loss. Pre SM they would have done it publicly. That’s ok if it is your loss but and people do need that loss validated. After experiencing a lot of loss I have realised that grief thieves are not very nice people.

It’s perfectly ok to be sad and cry in private but not really a good idea to seek sympathy from others in public or on SM. It’s embarrassing to watch.

When my DSis was dying last year we held off telling part of our extended family for this reason and when we did we asked that they didn’t post anything on social media. My BIL eventually used FB to inform friends and family, DSis died 8 wks after being diagnosed with stage 4 cancer which came out of the blue. But we wanted to protect BIL from the excessive outpouring of emotion the one part of the family are prone to.

Although we did expect a lot of communications, my uncle was contacting us late at night constantly crying and talking about how it was affecting him. Not once did he ask how we were coping. My other DSis, BIL and I were staying with DSis in the hospice in shifts. We were travelling 200miles+ for a couple of days each week so that BIL could get some rest at home. It was exhausting so didn’t appreciate calls at 1am from my aunt and uncle. I don’t remember them rushing to help my DF when my mum passed away in similar circumstances. Yes she was their niece but it really was over the top.

Tic Tok is full of posts by grief sympathy seekers. At the first hint of a death they rush to post about their aunt’s DIL’s cousins’s elderly cat’s demise. Often in a cryptic fashion to encourage engagement. Then in the next breath try and sell you something.

At 25 you may or may not have experienced the loss of a close family member or of a friend. You get used to it, believe me, and often your slightly less emotional reaction is criticised. But you learn how to react to death appropriately. Life goes on despite your world ending. We recently spent some time with my BIL to help sort stuff out. We had a great time, sharing memories and talking things through. I think people have this idea that you should be sad but in actual fact keeping their memory alive through stories and memories of the good times is really important.

As human beings we have celebrated our dead in lots of different ways. With my sister we go to her favourite local beach and look for Queens (Cowrie) shells. We are together but alone in our thoughts. Of course there is always a competition to find the most shells. It’s very therapeutic.
With my parents we have a special family place that we visit. We spent many happy family picnics there and I always come away from it with a clearer mind.

My DM died 9mnths before Diana , Princess of Wales , died. I found it very difficult to understand people’s over the top reaction, I felt that I was being over critical because of my personal grief, but have spoken to others who had been recently bereaved at the time and they felt the same. I remember that in the days following my DMs death we were able to shut the world out and just spend time together as a family. Visit my DM at the funeral home and prepare for her funeral.

Something that Diana's sons were unable to do. I often wonder how the public clambering to watch them grieve has affected them through life. And whether if they had been left in peace, out of the public eye they may have been able to deal with the events better. I have vivid memories of feeling absolute outrage that they were forced to wander around in public.

I think as a family they handled it far better after the Queens death. The children were kept away from public gaze until the funeral.

TwinMama39 · 11/06/2025 10:10

I am so sorry for your loss, and no you are absolutely not a 'grief grabber'. She was your friend and you have treasured memories of her.

I lost my mum to suicide and one of my childhood friends mums came to the funeral. I was so touched that she came. If you feel able, please share any lovely memories you have of your friend with her family; it will mean so much to them x

TwinMama39 · 11/06/2025 10:16

Also, if you are interested, look up the Ring Theory in relation to grief. It explains how the person most affected by the loss is in the centre and then there are rings of people out from this in levels of closeness. The basic jist is that the person in the centre can do anything in relation to their grief, anyone outside of this can only support people closer to the centre and only complain/vent to people in rings outside of them x

Angrymum22 · 11/06/2025 10:42

I also think that attending the funeral of a young person is really important. Their parents need to know just how much her life touched others. Particularly when they have taken their life.
I lost two colleagues who committed suicide in their early 40s. I knew both from our time at uni and although they were not social friends it felt really important that we supported their families. Suicide can leave the family confused and guilt ridden. They need to know that their loved one was liked and respected. It is true that often those you least expect commit suicide, if we knew they were unhappy or suffering with severe depression most of us would be there for them but it’s often well hidden.

I saw both my colleagues, who took their lives in the weeks before hand, spent the whole day with one of them. He gave no indication where things were heading. Both of these friends had bipolar disease but were on the surface fully functioning professionals. So it was a huge shock when they died. I often wonder if they had been able to talk about things may have been different but we all know that when someone is determined to go through with it there is little any of us can do to stop them.

My own DS was suicidal at one point during the pandemic. He had even written a note, which I found later. He hit rock bottom when the GCSEs were cancelled. It really hit home since a local boy, the same age as DS had hung himself over Christmas just after the second lockdown started.

Fortunately DS turned to friends who talked him through it, as did DH and I. It took months for him to recover and even now I still worry. Although he is loving life at the moment and has had to go through my diagnosis and treatment for breast cancer and the death of his aunt and grandfather so with real life experience of death I think he has a clearer picture of what death does.

The funeral will be hard and with suicide it does make more complex. It is easier to celebrate a life where death was unavoidable. Hopefully it is well attended.

Beentherelivedthat · 11/06/2025 10:54

I'm very sorry for your loss OP, and it is a loss. You were friends once and that love you once had for each other still matters. It will matter to her family who will be comforted to know people remember her from back then and share in their loss. I lost an old friend very suddenly a few years ago and felt similarly to you. We hadn't seen each other for five years or so but he was one of my closest friends as a teenager and into my 20s until I moved cities and our contact drifted. I didn't feel entitled to my grief for him since we were no longer close, but I felt it so very deeply. I still miss him, even though he wasn't someone in my life anymore. I've come to realise that when grieving for someone from your childhood, you are also grieving for that part of your life that is now gone too. Give yourself some grace, allow yourself to feel your feelings, and absolutely attend the funeral xx

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