I have a group of friends who all refer to us all as 'besties' etc. We've known each other more than 25 years. Old uni friends so grown up together.
We don't live in each other's pockets but go out or away for birthdays and special occasions and keep in touch with messenger.
I've been clashing with one of the ladies on the last few meet ups. I don't know if it's peri on mine or her or both our parts or if something is wrong. She can be quite brutal in her honesty. We had a chat about it to clear the air, the stay over before last and she asked if we were good. She said she was worried I was pretending so I didn't lose my other friends. She'd assumed they would dump me if we fell out. This has stuck with me.
Fast forward a few months and we're due another trip away for a birthday. The birthday lady has asked that we go to a ABBA night (only on for one nt) which I can't make. Nothing had been said but I have a feeling they're going without me. Which is fine, I know in my head. We've done nights out and nights away when one of us can't make it many times over the years. Nothing has been said about it though and I can't get out what was said. I feel like it's all a bit behind my back but I also understand not including me in the arrangements as I'm not going.... it makes sense and that's what we do when one of us can't go. I'm worried I'm being pushed out of the group.
I feel like I'm behaving like a five year old by worrying. I think I am in peri. Please feel free to tell me I'm nuts.
I am meeting up separately with the birthday lady for dinner too.