I absolutely hate my brother and don’t really know if IABU and should let it go or try and make amends as my parents say.
He is the oldest and I am the middle child of 4 siblings, 12 year age gap between us.
We had a close relationship until I was 15/16 until
I started doing normal teen things.
He basically took over from my parents and began parenting me.
He was truly abusive and awful.
When I began working I had to pay rent despite him not paying a penny.
I was held hostage for 6 months and not allowed to leave the house until I escaped.
This was 20 years ago and allot of the stuff I experienced I am sure he would have been arrested for and gone to court.
My teens and early 20s were just about working to pay the rent and bills, whilst he was still living home and able to save money for a deposit for his own house.
I did maintain low contact after he had kids etc but it was only when I had my own I cut him and my equally toxic sister off.
He was slagging of my parents and mocking them, he is just an awful person.
Calls them all the names under the but then uses them to babysit his kids.
He does this with all the family actually, mocks elderly relatives, makes awful jokes.
I just absolutely hate him and my sister who herself was very nasty and abusive to me.
I can’t help feel so much bitterness and hatred towards both of them.
I see my parents, they have said they were scared of him.
My parents hate seeing all this and wants us all to make peace.
I don’t think I can.
AIBU to feel the way I do?
To be honest I can’t see myself ever talking to both siblings again as alot of the abuse has affected me in life.