I know this might sound a bit silly. I’m part of a lovely group of friends, we’re all in our late twenties and try to meet up for dinner every couple of months. We’re not constantly in touch, but it’s always nice when we do catch up. The last time I saw everyone was in early April.
The tricky part is that I had a minor falling out with my best friend (who's also part of this group) a few months ago. It was honestly over something trivial, and thankfully, we made up just last week after I reached out. But even though things seem okay on the surface, I can still feel a bit of awkwardness lingering. We haven’t seen each other in person yet since making up.
Now, we’ve got a group dinner planned for this weekend, and for some reason, I’m feeling really anxious about it. I can't quite explain it... but the idea of seeing everyone is filling me with dread. I think part of it is feeling a bit out of the loop with the group. We're not extremely close, but I do really value these friendships and want to stay close to these people but I’m weirdly sooo nervous. The thought of seeing everyone and making small talk... TBH, I would prefer to cancel but I know thats not going to help me!