Looking for a handhold really as I don’t feel like I’m coping at all.
I’ve been experiencing some mild/moderate pain on and in my breast for a couple of weeks. I went to the doctors who has referred me on the 2 week urgent referral to the breast cancer unit.
The gp found a small lump whilst she was doing the examination.
I don’t feel that I’m coping at all. My appointment is Wednesday. I’m struggling to eat and massively catastrophising. I can’t seem to keep it in perspective. I am in a toxic marriage and I’m terrified I’m going to die and my children will end up left with their Dad. (I know the marriage is an issue within itself but not something I can deal with right now).
I accidentally saw something on Facebook this evening about Hodgkins lymphoma which I’ve terrified myself with this evening. I’m struggling to stop my heart racing.
I feel pathetic writing this as I know I’ve got everything well out of proportion.
The stupid thing is I had breast implant when I was 18 - low self esteem, not a very nice boyfriend who convinced me to do it. They’re well overdue for removal so logically it could quite easily be this.
I just don’t know how I’m going to cope until Wednesday. I’m sat here shaking from the worry of it all.