Regret. Any advice to move on?

[EmberR]

I am so frustrated with myself and just can’t shake it. I am so lucky and grateful, I have a lovely husband, a beautiful son, a job and our house. I have a lovely life that if you’d asked me 10 years ago would I be content I would have bitten your hand off.

But I feel regret and pain - I didn’t try for a second child as I was too scared and traumatised after my son was born. I convinced myself I was fine with one but now he’s growing up, I’m too old, and my heart is breaking. I know people go through such heartbreaking struggles with fertility and I’m so grateful to have my son. But I wasn’t even strong enough to even try for a second. How pathetic…

Any advice on how to move forward. Get over the regret? Sorry for the miserable post on a Sunday night.

My son is 4, and I know I am truly blessed he is well, happy and I LOVE him! I was 37 when I met my now husband and we are very lucky to have had our son so quickly and easily.

Maybe the “judgement” of only having 1 is totally in my mind. I just worry he’s bored and lonely, and when I see families out and about and they have 2 I wonder what it would be like if he had that.

also as it’s 100% my fault as I refused to try, I feel so much guilt. It sounds bad but if we had tried and it didn’t work it would be so sad but at least I took action and that was natures path. I didn’t even want to try as I was too scared and that’s the main issue and regret. I let myself and my husband down for not being brave enough

I'm confused OP....you're saying you're too old to try, but you will try but you feel guilty because if you'd tried then it would be nature's way, but because you didn't try it's your fault?

Why don't you just.....try???