NC to not out myself.
I've been married a long time and have kids with DH. We've been through a lot of rough to get to the smooth Inc him cheating in the past.
He's never had a very high sex drive but in recent years he's completely stopped initiating sex, if I don't make a very clear move, we go months without having sex until I do. He's also rejected me many times.
It's knocked my confidence and I feel ugly. I'm toned, I work out and look after myself, but it makes me feel gross. I've really tried to talk to him but it gets me nowhere, he says he didn't realise and he'll keep it in mind then we go to our sexless marriage again.
After a bad few weeks of not even getting a kiss from him I told him if he wants to stay married I want us to have an open one so someone else can make me feel wanted. I'll admit it was a bad way of bringing it up but I do feel like its the only way I can get out of this feeling.
I apologised and said I knew I shouldn't have said it that way bur after a lot of thought I think it's an option. DH is seething with me and hasn't spoken to me since.
Someone just tell me how to fix this. I'm in love with my husband, but this is doing some real damage to me.