I’ve worked in the CS now for just over three years and when first joining I was enthusiastic and upbeat, however three years on I am so depressed and discouraged with my work.
The team are all friendly enough but I don’t feel ‘involved’ with them. I feel like I’ve lost a lot of of confidence as I don’t know where my job ends and my managers begins. The lines are so blurred and I sometimes feel like I’m useless (although manager always positive about my productivity and output etc) I do a lot of work, kind of get a lot ‘dumped’ on me but just feel so disheartened. It’s very top heavy and as nice as the people are it seems most are creating unnecessary bureaucracy to justify their positions. When I joined I thought the CS was stepping away from all that and allowing innovative and creative ideas but my god it’s so frustrating not being able to do your job without a million processes to keep up with. I am all for scrutiny and accountability to ensure work is conducted to a high standard but it’s getting ridiculous. Nobody has a clue what process they are supposed to follow and it’s always contradicted.
The pay is OK and I could go for promotion in my team but I still wouldn’t be happy as the system won’t change. A positive is the benefits of flexitime for family and the pension - this is the only reason I’m staying but I’m so unhappy and lonely. I literally dread each morning having to see what nonsense awaits. I’ve tried changing my mindset, being grateful etc but I’ve realised it’s just not for me.
Has anyone ever left a public sector role to join a private organisation? Or know of any CS departments with a good reputation?