For Not Being Able to Turn My Life Around?

[MommyGoblin]

I’m 27 and 180lbs. I had my child 6 years ago. I thought I’d lose the pregnancy weight like EVERYBODY else I know, but no.
I live in a rather snobbish, newly wealthy/touristy town and I fucking hate seeing all the hot, beautiful, THIN moms at school everyday. I’m younger than any of them and yet still fatter and uglier. I never do my makeup, my clothes/style are sloppy and frumpy, my hair is always up in a clip, sometimes I break out badly. I just feel like I fucking ALWAYS look like ugly, trashy, fat shit compared to everyone else.

Im starting to not even want to go out and do the things I enjoy anymore. I want to eat healthy and exercise but I’m too embarrassed to workout in front of anyone and I have NO IDEA about eating healthy. I don’t know how to cook because my mother never did growing up. I don’t know how to put together a good, healthy meal nor when to eat, how much, etc.

idk why I’m posting tbh. I’m just feeling really down and sad and I haven’t stopped crying for two days because I’m just so fucking disgusting and I hate my goddamn self so fucking much!!!!!!

you're 27 and have a child obviously you can cook, eat healthy foods, shape up and look fab if you want to.
eating; be it unhealthy or healthy takes the same amount of time. cooking healthy meals and ideas my go to is Jamie Oliver notice the portion sizes (the recipes will say feeds 4 makes or 6 servings) or BBC good foods.
loosing weight is mainly portion control the issue is some foods are soooo yummy they are hard to cut back on but it's manageable with the addition of extra veggies to make up for the mostly carbs and calorie dense items you are going to reduce.
hair; get a trim, use a good shampoo and cream rinse, get some new hair ties and head bands etc.

skin care; go on style and beauty for more personal tips but a nice gentle wash (i like la roche posey foaming micellar water) while in the shower and a good all purpose moisturizer spf concealer. none of this needs to be fancy or expensive.
fitness; there are exercise routines you can do in the privacy of your own home online. start walking more and faster.
if you really want to make a change you can.