Hi guys, I've never done this before so please be kind..I've been with my "partner" for 8 years now, I fell pregnant very quickly after getting together (had been told it would never happen so was a big surprise)..we were thrown to step up after only 4 months of dating and I was very conscious that this pregnancy was something we both didn't have on our life plan. Anyway, it's not been easy, he has bipolar and refuses to get proper help, he has self medicated for years but its made him so temperamental, he's been vile to me and my child, calls him names, loses his temper very quickly and blames me for everything..I never know where I am with him, I've definitely lost part of myself, I am often withdrawn and shut off when he has an episode..I protect my son from his dad's lows and alot of our issues is that we disagree on how to parent, I don't agree with harsh punishment or shouting and demanding to get your way. My son has his own issues which needs a tender loving approach, my partner cant/won't see this. Anyway, sorry this is so long.. anyway, through out the relationship every big event turns out to be to stressful for him and he acts like a c**t..birthdays, Xmas etc, this mother's day he walked out on me an hour before my dad was coming round, who I had just found out has cancer, he's come back and forth when it suits and was back the other morning. I'd left my phone out and he decided to go through it, there was nothing really there apart from me talking to girlfriends about our relationship and I had planned a day out with 2 of my girlfriends and i didn't tell him..so now I'm deceitful and a liar..this really is just a snippet of life for me..I think I just need to know whether my feelings of anger and sadness are validated. Thank you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx