111 for mental health ADVICE

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I wasn’t going to post this but after something I’ve just read I’m going to seek some opinions hopefully!
So I suffer with depression…… have done for as long I can remember. I suspect I have some form of other issue undiagnosed but anyway…..
I’ve been ‘back on for the millionth time’ antidepressants for 6 months ….
i felt better at first cos life just improved also…..
fast forward to now…. I have lost many friends due to my mental health, my partner doesn’t understand and ‘tuts’ when I just want to lay in bed cos I’m feeling so low…..
I have a child with said partner and I love her very much and she doesn’t suffer cos of my mental health I hope cos I have an amazing ability to carry on as normal, we have amazing times together like parks, baking, shopping, cuddles etc…. But I do everything! No one to support me despite having a partner. Then suddenly my family support system (all 2 of them) are very poorly, in and out of hospital, paramedics rang me at 3am other morning as nok…. I’m struggling!
BUT I realised things had got too much when I had a day at work and I had this overwhelming feeling of ‘not being part of the world’
i realise this sounds crazy but here we are….
SO MY POINT IS….. I’m desperately trying to seek help from my gp after phone calls to Samaritan and the like but still feeling weird ….last few weeks I’ve tried to ring but been like 29th in queue, when I try patches it always crashes…… I spoke to a care navigator and they advised I ring 111 or first response - wtaf!!!
im not suicidal, never have been, just need a review of my ad’s!
i fully appreciate how busy they are (i work in community health services) but I don’t want to be taking up a crisis line when I’m in no way going to take my own life, there are other people that need this more than me!
but I’m left at a loss….. all I want to do is try and help myself……
AIBU feeling this is an absolute shit show?!!!

It sounds like you're suffering from some form of dissociation.

If you were advised to contact NHS Direct, then do that.

Part of your struggle seems to be the fact that you're overwhelmed because of lack of support. It would be an idea to work on that. There may be mother baby groups in your area or other support.

Hub of Hope has a search function to look for what's available locally. You need to try and get your partner on board as you currently need support.

111 may be able to facilitate an appointment with your GP - they did so for my DS recently in similar circumstances. He was contacted by the practice the following morning with an appointment for that day.

phone 111, they are a pathway to the right care.

Can you go to the doctor in person. at 8am tomorrow morning and query for an appointment? It's rediculous that you can't get the care you need. I suffer with depression too and I know how tough it can be and the need to feel like you can control it.

Thank you everyone. I did go down to gp at 8 this morning and got an appointment, trying sertraline. I thought about what was said about ringing 111 and decided I was prepared to do it if no luck with gp because I’m desperately trying to cope and get help so I don’t lose it completely - for context I was hospitalised 5years ago due to nearly drinking myself to death which started as a way to cope with poor mental health and stress.
But anyway….. I’m a step forward thanks to persistence with the gp, thank you to you all for taking time to respond xx

Glad you got an appointment sorted and hope you start to feel better soon.

I’m glad you got a GP appointment in the end. But don’t hesitate to call 111 if you feel yourself crashing again, they’re not just there if you’re suicidal. I called them a few months ago when I was very anxious and couldn’t cope, it was a weekend. I can’t remember the exact process unsurprisingly, but o remember that they were so kind and understanding, they got me some diazepam within an hour or two, they were great.