Smear test trauma - hand hold needed

[Wickedclimber]

Please talk me through this.
Sitting in hospital waiting room, REALLY trying not to cry.
I have to have my smear tests at the hospital, due to past trauma.

I'm pathetic I know. But I'm trying to keep it together.

You’re not pathetic at all, well done for taking the courage to do this & prioritise your health and wellbeing despite the trauma it is causing you.
you are far braver than you give yourself credit for.
well done and hugs

You are not pathetic. The fact that you're there at all demonstrates unbelievable courage. I'm holding your hand and hoping that you have a kind, gentle nurse and that it's over soon.

It’s not pathetic at all ❤️ don’t be harsh on yourself, you are being so brave.

if it helps, the nurses in the hospitals tend to be really understanding, I had a smear at a women’s clinic in the hospital and it was a much calmer much less stressful experience than at the gp

Same OP, but not at hospital.

a) Just get it over with, the end for three years.
b) It gets easier as you get older, because what that fucker did to you does NOT get to steal your healthcare for the rest of your life.

I’m really sorry, just here to hold your hand.
Is there anyone that can be there with you?

You’re not being pathetic at all. But you need to do this for your health. Can you have some sips of water and try to take some deep breaths, just to help you feel calmer.

would you like to chat here or anything else to distract you, like a game on your phone or scrolling etc. have they given you an idea of how long you have to wait? Xx

You're not pathetic. I cannot face smear tests at all for similar reasons. I think you're really brave. It's not your fault, what happened, and I'm so sorry that you have such distress in your life.

Sending you love and solidarity. It will be over soon. Take care. xx

You are NOT pathetic at all.
I hope you have something nice planned for after.

You're not pathetic at all. Last time I had one I cried in the waiting room and on the nurse
Then I actually didn't feel a thing. I've never had that before. So I hope you also get a relaxed and calm smear. Well done for going.

Hugs.

Thanks everyone.

I got through it, after they left me waiting for over an hour because nobody had actually checked me in, despite me checking twice!

I had a meltdown but it's all done now and I can try and relax tonight.

Well done!! Over and done with now - make sure you give yourself a big hug and tell yourself how well you've done!!

Well done. Sorry they left you waiting so long though.

You are absolutely not pathetic.
I had my first smear test aged 36 and my best friend had to bribe me to go as I was so frightened. I had trauma from SA and needed all the encouragement I could get. It was nowhere near as bad as I thought it might be, in fact it was not traumatic at all. I'm glad you went and got it over with. It's a big part of being a healthy woman and good on you for waiting.
Onwards and upwards.