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Helpmeout99 · 2025-04-02T11:24:56+00:00

Aged 17 I found out I was pregnant, I wanted to keep the baby but my parents marched me to the clinic for a termination and told me never to speak to anyone about it, as the shame was too much for them to bare. Fast forward 27years and my boyfriend at the time, and father to our baby, are now married with a wonderful family and have built a very happy life together… apart from one issue which is my Mum. I have a difficult relationship with my mum who is controlling and has a lot of narcissistic tendencies. My mum is lovely as long as I have no boundaries and am basically just an extension of her! After a recent blow up over nasty things she has said, I have found out that she has gone and told family members and friends of hers about the termination and that she feels I have never forgiven her for it and this is why our relationship is tricky!! I have not spoken to my mum about what happened in 25 years! I have recently tried to keep my distance, due to repeated nastiness and gaslighting when called out on it. My mum is not coping with me having boundaries as she feels she has an absolute right to know the ins and outs of my life and be involved in it all which is exhausting. She blows up over every little thing and is always a victim . My dad died several years ago and he was the only one who could stop her nastiness to any extent when she was in one of her ‘moments’ I feel that her telling people about my most personal medical information is her revenge at being kept at a distance. She refuses to apologise and cannot understand my fear that it will get back to my children and force me to have a conversation with them that I would not have necessarily chosen to have. I am I unreasonable to feel as betrayed and angry as I do?

AdoraBell · 02/04/2025 14:03

I would cut contact and if anyone comments on you having the abortion tell them - yes, I was 17, didn’t want to but my mother forced me to have the abortion and now she’s gossiping about it.

I’m sorry for you being treated that way by her.

PineappleCoconut · 02/04/2025 14:07

I’m 30 years free of mine, on the whole.
She will send the odd flying monkey, but they are quickly told to butt out and bugger off
my life has been immeasurably better without her in it

She’s never met my DC, nor do they want to meet her

Break free.
Tell the kids what happened when they are old enough, and why you no longer see her, and that you promise you will never behave towards them as she did to you

Endthisshit · 02/04/2025 14:08

Of course i dont know your situation, but it reminded me of an article I saw in the Daily Telegraph (?) the other day written by someone in a situation that sounded similar to yours. After decades he decided to end contact with his Mum, said it was difficult but the best decision he ever made!

Papercup · 02/04/2025 14:10

I may be way off the mark here so apologies if I’ve got this wrong, but…

It sounds like you’re still carrying a lot of shame from having this abortion due to what your parents said at the time.

I just wanted to say that you have nothing to be ashamed of. It is wonderful that in this country young girls have options if they find themselves unexpectedly pregnant. There are so so so many women like you who have had abortions. You do not need to fear maybe telling your children one day. I will one day tell my teenagers that I had one so that they know that if they find themselves in that situation they can come to me without fear or judgement and I will help them.

Please don’t keep hold of this shame. You did what you had to do at the time. And there is nothing to feel ashamed for. Your mother on the other hand should be hanging her head with shame not only for how she treated you at the time but also her behaviour now.

simpledeer · 02/04/2025 14:13

My narc mother was very similar. Not happy unless she was harming me.

Going NC 13 years ago was an absolute gift and I haven’t regretted it for a second. When she dies I will just feel relieved that she can’t hurt me (or anyone else) ever again.

Keep yourself safe OP. 💐

YankSplaining · 02/04/2025 14:16

Papercup · 02/04/2025 14:10

I may be way off the mark here so apologies if I’ve got this wrong, but…

It sounds like you’re still carrying a lot of shame from having this abortion due to what your parents said at the time.

I just wanted to say that you have nothing to be ashamed of. It is wonderful that in this country young girls have options if they find themselves unexpectedly pregnant. There are so so so many women like you who have had abortions. You do not need to fear maybe telling your children one day. I will one day tell my teenagers that I had one so that they know that if they find themselves in that situation they can come to me without fear or judgement and I will help them.

Please don’t keep hold of this shame. You did what you had to do at the time. And there is nothing to feel ashamed for. Your mother on the other hand should be hanging her head with shame not only for how she treated you at the time but also her behaviour now.

She did what she was forced to do at the time. This isn’t just a story about a mother who can’t keep her daughter’s business quiet - this is a story about a mother who forced her daughter to have an abortion, told her she’d better not tell anyone, and then used it against her years later.

YANBU, OP.

Pigsears · 02/04/2025 14:17

I couldn't forgive my mum or dad about being marched to an abortion clinic against my will.

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Helpmeout99 · 02/04/2025 14:27

Endthisshit · 02/04/2025 14:08

Of course i dont know your situation, but it reminded me of an article I saw in the Daily Telegraph (?) the other day written by someone in a situation that sounded similar to yours. After decades he decided to end contact with his Mum, said it was difficult but the best decision he ever made!

I will see if I can find it, thank you x

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Sassybooklover · 02/04/2025 14:28

It sounds very much like your Mum is 'punishing' you for having boundaries with her, and has decided to use her knowledge of your abortion against you. She clearly knows how distressing it would be for you, to know she's blabbed to all in sundry. It isn't information she should be sharing, and she's not stupid, therefore knows that. She's trying to force you to have a relationship with her on her terms, not yours. Unfortunately, I wouldn't put it passed her to tell your children, out of spite. How old are your children? I'm guessing old enough to understand what you did and why? If so, then both you and your husband need to sit them down and tell them yourself. If they're old enough, tell them why you're telling them too. I'm sure if they're older children, they have some idea what their Grandmother can be like. If you take away the power she perceives she has, then she has no hold over you. At the moment she's holding the cards, because she knows you and your husband won't want your children to know. No decent Mother would dream of treating their child in this manner; as a parent, we want to protect our children, not hurt them. She's nothing more than a spiteful bitch, who is throwing her toys out of the pram because she can't have her own way.

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Helpmeout99 · 02/04/2025 14:30

Papercup · 02/04/2025 14:10

I may be way off the mark here so apologies if I’ve got this wrong, but…

It sounds like you’re still carrying a lot of shame from having this abortion due to what your parents said at the time.

I just wanted to say that you have nothing to be ashamed of. It is wonderful that in this country young girls have options if they find themselves unexpectedly pregnant. There are so so so many women like you who have had abortions. You do not need to fear maybe telling your children one day. I will one day tell my teenagers that I had one so that they know that if they find themselves in that situation they can come to me without fear or judgement and I will help them.

Please don’t keep hold of this shame. You did what you had to do at the time. And there is nothing to feel ashamed for. Your mother on the other hand should be hanging her head with shame not only for how she treated you at the time but also her behaviour now.

Thank you, I carry a lot of shame and guilt as I have had it drilled into me what hurt I caused my parents and how awful it was for them. My mum in particular parented with guilt, shame and instilled fear on all levels and If I am honest she scares me more than anyone else ever has. She is highly intelligent and can bring you to your knees with her venom x

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Helpmeout99 · 02/04/2025 14:32

Sassybooklover · 02/04/2025 14:28

It sounds very much like your Mum is 'punishing' you for having boundaries with her, and has decided to use her knowledge of your abortion against you. She clearly knows how distressing it would be for you, to know she's blabbed to all in sundry. It isn't information she should be sharing, and she's not stupid, therefore knows that. She's trying to force you to have a relationship with her on her terms, not yours. Unfortunately, I wouldn't put it passed her to tell your children, out of spite. How old are your children? I'm guessing old enough to understand what you did and why? If so, then both you and your husband need to sit them down and tell them yourself. If they're old enough, tell them why you're telling them too. I'm sure if they're older children, they have some idea what their Grandmother can be like. If you take away the power she perceives she has, then she has no hold over you. At the moment she's holding the cards, because she knows you and your husband won't want your children to know. No decent Mother would dream of treating their child in this manner; as a parent, we want to protect our children, not hurt them. She's nothing more than a spiteful bitch, who is throwing her toys out of the pram because she can't have her own way.

my children are young adults now and I think we will tell them as we were younger than they are now when it happened and were given no choice. As you say this will take away her power and may help me feel more in control x
thank u for you reply

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user593 · 02/04/2025 14:34

Nothing to add really except to say my mum did something similar to me so you have my sympathy. We’re mostly NC now (for this and other reasons) 💕

Vaxtable · 02/04/2025 14:35

I would simply go no contact now

Cyclebabble · 02/04/2025 14:53

How awful. For me there would be no way back from this. I would cut all ties. If she is capable of this she is capable of anything.

allthemiddlechildrenoftheworld · 02/04/2025 14:56

@Helpmeout99 dont ever speak to her again. no contact!! she doesnt want boundaries so you need to put up the biggest boundary of all!! she is a horrible witch!!

TENSsion · 02/04/2025 14:57

Op
I’m no contact with my mum. It’s better. I no longer go to bed with a ball of anger, hurt and resentment. I’m free of her.