I feel like I'm going mad at the moment.
Where do people feel hunger, and what should it feel like?
I'm starting to feel as though I'm gaslighting myself and don't know anything any more. Since about Christmas, I've had really bad pains in my guts which I assumed was IBS, because of a previous IBS diagnosis several years ago. However, previously it was something that came for a few days, then went away. Sometimes I went months without any. Since about Christmas it's been most of the time, much more severe, and not responsive to any of the things that used to work, like peppermint tea or Colpermin or Buscopan. Alongside the pain, which starts in my upper gut/stomach area about an hour after eating, then moves to my lower guts later and often wakes me up at night, I've had diarrhoea and SO much burping it's driving me crazy.
I went to the GP about 3 weeks ago, who immediately said he thought it could be coeliac disease, and has booked me in for loads of tests to check and to rule out other things. I've had blood tests and stool tests, still waiting for results, and am having ultrasounds next week, then potentially cameras if they don't show anything. I can't start eating gluten free til after all that, but when I read about coeliac, all the symptoms match.
In the meantime, I've become really scared of eating, and now struggle to recognise the difference between hunger and pain from whatever is going on. My GP has asked me to log pains and what I'm eating (as I've tried cutting things out in the past and never been able to identify anything specific causing the pain - which if it is gluten, then that makes sense as I hadn't considered that and haven't tried cutting it out). I'm finding it so hard to know if I'm hungry any more, and have been avoiding eating out of fear of more pain, so I'm wondering if some of the pain I'm logging is actually hunger.
Aargh, sorry, that got really long! But does anyone have any tips for telling the difference? (Or any advice having gone through something similar?) I feel shit at the moment.