To ask how to get help for being over emotional

[Ninahaen]

Growing up, my mum was very dramatic. She would get really angry and stressed and shout about really tiny inconveniences.

She would get hysterical when really there was no need.

i have tried my best to not be a shouter, but I think I’m naturally a fairly neurotic person. I’ve kept it under control at home (if I feel myself getting angry and I know I’m being irrational I walk out of the house so that I don’t start hysterically screaming at my family.)

however. The last few weeks I feel as though the mask is slipping at work. I’ve gotten into disagreements with colleagues who speak over me (basically told them to let me finish what I was saying and stop interrupting me) and I can feel tears coming to my eyes during heated meetings.

im devastated that I’m behaving like this. I come off most calls from work and have a cry before I can do anything else. I’m not sure where I can get help as I really don’t want to turn into my mum (admittedly she never worked, so she didn’t ever show her behaviour in a public setting)

My own line manager has addressed the situation by telling him that my work stream will report directly into her rather than him (she witnessed a meeting this week and could see how angry I was, and having worked together for years she knows I’m more than capable of a good job)

but the thing is, I can’t blame someone else for me not being able to handle my emotions like an adult.