To think it's always one thing or another.

[InBedBy10]

I've had a crazy busy few weeks. Several work commitments, Several personal commitments, family events, appointments.... honestly just one thing after another. Yesterday was supposed to be my last event for the foreseeable future and I was really looking forward to being able to 'mentally' relax. Not having to remember things or arrange and organise things. Not having to go somewhere I don't particularly want to go.

Today I get an email and I've yet another commitment coming up that I really can't get out of. And it requires alot of work leading up to it 😭 honestly if I didn't laugh, I'd cry.

Does anyone else feel like there is always something that needs doing? As an adult I cant remember the lasy time I've had a month or two where I didn't HAVE to do something.

I don't particularly feel like this is the way of things to do and commitments but I do in other ways. Mentally I feel I need a break from things happening that upset my normal flow. This year has been awful. I had flu for a week, then my daughter was poorly for a week, then my dog got attacked by another dog and needed stitches, an operation, and full time care, then my Dad became ill and had to have loads of tests which was stressful. Then 3 weeks ago he died unexpectedly so I am now grieving too.

Added to all of this is we are trying to sell our house and I now also have to go through the process, at some point, of clearing my Dad's house, applying for probate and putting that on the market too.

And I just feel like screaming at the world to leave me the fuck alone!!! 😢

I just crave a time when my life is boring and nothing is happening. Like you I feel I just need to mentally relax so I do get it.