I need help

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hi,
come on here cos don’t know what to do& don’t feel comfortable talking to people or even being round them anymore. my mental health has really dipped the past week or so, this year has been quite tricky already with multiple events/setbacks & I just don’t know how to explain how I’m feeling. I don’t want to throw in the towel but I really don’t get much out of life anymore. I’ve been let down and abused so much by people that I despise being round people now - even being close to people in supermarkets trigger my flight/fight response & I come over so hot and angry. I don’t feel joy out of life now and I feel like a waste of space. Everyone has solid relationships, pregnancies, hitting milestones with happy lives or they have purposes& stuff they’re great at , I feel like I was existed by fluke. Don’t know what I’m doing with my life- my problem is I’m so hurt & paranoid that I don’t want to work or be round people. I do have known mental issues caused by childhood trauma.
im drinking everyday now & most times it’s binging. I’ve stopped now for my health money sanity & people’s concern but I need advice. Been used yet again so staying away from men&people. I do want to work but I’ve had a breakdown & can’t hack being round people now. I just wanna vanish :(

I would make an appointment with your GP and get a check up. I don't know if you're around that age, but it could be peri. It could be vitamin deficiencies, there could be other reasons.

You can find a therapist at BACP. Look into CPTSD and see if it resonates. Try and get trauma based therapy.

Eat well and exercise. Go for a walk every day, hydrate. You could try supplements: omega 3, B complex, magnesium and vitamin D.

Peter Walker CPTSD from Surviving to Thriving might be helpful and Six Pillars of Self Esteem might help.

Look into the Freedom Programme if you're finding yourself in toxic relationships.

You need to see a doctor as soon as possible.

Thank you guys xxxxx

Big hugs to you. Pls go to therapy.

When you get into relationships, you need to be sure early on about what you are expecting to get out of it. At any point if your needs are not being met, you need to walk out. You cut your losses early so you don’t feel used.

I hope you feel better soon. There is more to life than men. Discover yourself, love yourself and you’ll see life differently again ❤️