To be absolutely sick to death of my 19 month old?

[watchitnowplease]

And I know it’s horrible of me and she won’t be 19 months forever but this particular phase has been ongoing for ages now. If I leave the room she cries and walks around wailing for me. She’s only really content (and sometimes not even then) when I’m carrying her (and I have to be; no carriers)

It is exhausting and I hurt my back last night so it’s particularly painful today. But emotionally it’s so hard. I never get a breather from her and I also have an older child who I feel like is bringing himself up because she’s so intense with me.

Solidarity. My son is 16 months and if I leave the room for more than a second or two while he’s in his high chair he screams, and if he’s walking around he just follows (which is fine but sometimes I need to just grab something without wrestling a toddler back into the lounge lol). Just started his kicking at me while trying to settle him for bed phase and sometimes I feel like I just need 30 minutes to breathe.
Is the not using a carrier personal choice or something else? If you aren’t a fan of them I totally get it, but I have a Lennylamb preschool that works quite well for sticking him on my back so I can at least clean the kitchen without him trying to climb into the bin or something. They’re not cheap but sometimes come up on Vinted, you could postal hire one to test it out maybe in case you find it helpful? I did that before committing to one. Realise if you struggle with your back it may not be ideal though.

You’re not in this alone. It’s so hard when you love them so utterly and unconditionally but they’re testing your patience. I hope things get easier soon. It’d be easier if it was cute clinging and wanting cuddles rather than just wanting you to be there, and squirming away and kicking when picked up for a cuddle in my case!