Hi...
I'm looking for some mums to talk to, I'm a single mum with and 18 year old and twin boys 14
I don't have family with me i separated from the childrens dad 11 years ago
And another partner recently due to DV narcissist
At Xmas my son was assaulted but 8 lads in the community and again recently after 10 weeks the police are now doing something, but my son has disconnected from the family a bit..
One of the twins (twin 2 were call him) who was assaulted also doesn't attend school full time and stil fight the system due to his needs.. and this is tiring.. a draining..
My twins don't get on at all it's constant bickering or disrespect, one doesn't like boundaries.
I have been dignosed myself with arthritis fibromyalgia
And now an eating disorder been dignosed with Belmia I can't get my head around it all.
I feel like I'm failing my children with my mental health.. i feel so alone and like I'm fighting everyone around me and jsut things keep happening one thing after another..
The dad doesn't care doesn't believe in adhd or autism mental health etc.. doesn't understand the education system as it's a complete shit show!
I feel lost I feel burnt out, I don't know how much more I can do..
There's so much going on. Everyday I say to myself there's worse people than us out there, but I'm exhausted.. my anxiety is so bad I can't leave the house with out having a panic attack.
I feel such a failure for everyone I should be able to do this as a mum.. and feel I'm failing I cry my self to sleep
I've read on Google about burnt out mum syndrome now I feel even worse!
I feel so low I sometimes don't even wanna wake up in the morning, I wouldn't ever do anything but the thoughts sometimes.. I'm having talking therapy which I find hard.
Is it normal to feel like this I feel my head is going 10000 miles and my body is not keeping up!
I have no one to turn to..
I prob sound so stupid writing on here
I thought it might help to reach out to other mums sorry