I’m so fustrated writing this. My life feels so dull and pointless at the moment. I’m struggling to find enjoyment in anything. DH and I moved houses a couple months ago, and now I can’t find any time for myself. I’m in a beautiful new area but can’t explore it and it’s awful. We have two dc very young. Dc2 is 9 months now and can be watched for an extended period by dad who is self employed. He can’t find any time away from his busy schedule to watch the kids. This has been going on for a while and I’ve had to keep rearranging dental appointments to accommodate his busy work life in the past despite being in severe pain. This was at his request. Turns out I had a root canal now all my days off have to be spent sorting it out and he treats that as my time off away from the kids. As fun as getting needles in your mouth is (and you would think it’s fun judging by how guilty he makes me feel when the second I come home his complaining about how he can’t watch the kids no more) I need a serious break! My hair is literally matted and falling out. My hairdresser (last time I seen her was 7 months ago) says my hair has gotten so unhealthy from not being able to look after it. I used to be complimented all the time on my appearance now I look 30 years older than I am. Admittedly it’s hard to even get a shower; when he comes home after a long day he will get one and won’t ask if I need one to. If I ask for him to watch the kids he complains about how the bills are all on him and I can’t do his job so why is he doing mine. I would love a spa day, get my nails or eyelashes done and feel nice about myself. I feel so fustrated and insecure. He says we can’t have time for ourselves because of the kids but if he worked normal hours we could. Also the new house is too far from family to ask for their help and to be fair even if they were closer they have their own lives. I feel like just crying all day but I can’t even do that!