I have suffered with my MH for years. I’ve tried different therapies, medication etc and haven’t found the right fit yet.
The last few weeks I’ve felt so flat. Everything is irritating me, I don’t feel any excitement towards anything.
I also have other ongoing health issues - I am on the waiting list to see an endocrinologist, I’ve had to pay out to see a dentist today, and I just feel crap. My skin and hair are oily etc.
My partner told me lastnight that I have been “a different person” over the last month or so. He doesn’t always lose his rag at me but he told me I’ve become aggressive, moody and just not kind. He said I was a “twat” last week and he apologised straight away but it’s made me realise.
The worst part is, I’m not even noticing how I’ve been. I didn’t even realise I’d been that bad. I know I feel a bit flat but yeah.
I feel exhausted with trying more medication. I have been going to yoga and Pilates. I have been trying to run and go on walks. I’ve been trying to eat healthier.
I am even in therapy.
But nothing is helping.
I just feel completely stumped and defeated and sad.
I really don’t know where to go next.