I’m 28, met DH at 19 when I’d never had a boyfriend or any partner as I was so anxious and depressed as a teen I never dated. I’ve kind of settled. He’s not nice to me when the kids aren’t around. When they are he isn’t overly nice he just is amicable. He is selfish and lazy. We have 2 kids and it feels like we’re co parents who live together.
I feel a bit sad but if we split he’d get some custody and my kids are young, I couldn’t trust him alone with them as he never cares for them even now he’d not know what to do. So maybe when they’re older I’ll get the courage to leave.
But I see people and other couples and I love seeing people happy and loved up :)
I think if I left DH when I’m older I’d probably just be alone, I’m not sure how I’d meet anyone. My work is remote , I don’t really have friends as I’ve struggled socially so really shut myself off as a young adult. But id like to think that true love does exist
do you feel that way with your partner even after many years ?