I have been very unhappy with "partner" for years now.
We share a DC together but the relationship itself is very bad and toxic.
We are clearly not right for each other and I am utterly miserable and so is he.
He does as he pleases, provides little care for DC and is very verbally abusive and very selfish in general.
He is out most weekends.
All he does is explain how I should cook, clean and give him sex but I am exhausted from looking after DC, he does very very little I do all the childcare.
The house is mine and I support myself and he does give money for DC but it's not really enough.
He hates my voice as it's "too deep" and it makes me very self conscious and he is always putting me down, I have zero confidence.
He said yesterday that he should have had a child with someone he was in love with but he loves me.
I don't even think he loves me as all he is picks rows and puts me down and he openly speaks of moving on and meeting someone else just like I think about it every day myself how it would be to be in love and happy.
Before I got pregnant with DC I did kind of meet someone who I could totally see myself falling in love with, I think of him every single day.
I found out I was pregnant after I had left soon to be ex.
It's been 2 years since we have spoken or saw each other.
He was so lovely and sweet and sometimes I just feel like reaching out but I am scared as soon to be ex says that he will take DC away if I meet someone else.
My DC is my first priority but I don't want to be alone forever and miss out.
AIBU?
I'm telling him tomorrow that it is truly over and to contact me via email to arrange access for DC but I don't want any more communication and for him to take his stuff.