I hate this house

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Moved in 2 years ago and I know this sounds dramatic but this house is making me so upset. I constantly eat as I’m stressed at home. In work or out I’m fine but as soon as I step inside I have a sinking overwhelmed feeling.

DH doesn’t care and does nothing to help. The lights downstairs don’t work and I go around in darkness with my phone light on. The shower had its leak fixed but has left a mark in living room. There’s so much that needs to be done. DH’s family are builders and I’m constantly told to just wait and they will fix it but they never do! I’ve ordered paints and wallpaper and I’m doing it tomorrow. DH and his mum are telling me I’m being rash and I will do a botched up job, I’m scared I will but I hate living in this awful dump. Everything is fo confusing for me such as the lights are fixed in so not just pop out the spot light and replace it has to be wired in etc. so I can’t fix that. I just hate this house it feels so horrible. I’ve stopped caring and quite frankly it looks really bad with dishes in sink from all week, toilets disgusting. Living room can’t see the floor as so much junk. I know I’m depressed but what’s the point of trying to keep this house clean when it looks so bad.

do you mean me or the OP?

Can you buy a new dishwasher. Pay for installation and removal of your old one . Spotlights are a pain in the arse and are hard to do yourself, you might need an electrician. Rechargeable lamp on a console or table in the hall if room. Runner or rug on floor .
It is hard when stuff needs to be done and you can't get anyone to do it . Some people it wouldn't bother . But I am like you and small things do start to affect me . I had two choices , do it or organise it myself .
I did say that I would pay someone if it didn't get done . Sometimes that worked .!
One other way is to get all the necessary things together , the lights , a ladder, the tools , the wires for the job . Then it is much easier for them to just do it . I also come from a family of builders and it's the prep that they are reluctant to do after working all day .

Thank you everyone for your comments and suggestions. It’s been a while since I posted and things are slowly getting better. I feel a little more happier with the house but I feel it’s an endless list of todo lists! I did quite a bit but still feel it’s never enough.