Anxiety 10 days later

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Hey all,

Let’s start by saying I’m not a bigger drinker. I worked out since November 2023 I have been out drinking 4 times. My problem is literally everytime I go out and drink, I get absolutely ruined. As soon as first drink goes into me that’s it I can’t stop and end up being carried home.
I wake up not knowing what I have done or said. I’m completely not myself when I drink either but apparently I’m fun 🙄 I hate myself for it. I am 10 days since my last night out, and I can’t even begin to explain how depressed and anxiety I feel still.
Everyone around me, says I over think it, it doesn’t happen often so what’s the problem or your kids never see you like that so don’t worry.
I do worry.
Am I being dramatic in staying sober? I’m worried I only give into drinks every now and then when I feel like being told I’m boring for always saying no.

Staying sober seems like the only sensible option, really. You're obviously not hung up on booze as you have it so rarely, it clearly doesn't suit you - just don't bother, and don't put yourself in danger of whatever accident or bad intent may come your way when you are seriously drunk.

If anyone else has a problem with you not drinking, that is strictly their problem not yours.

Uncontrollable binge drinking isn't something to encourage. If you know your limits (none) you should stick to them.

Most people are a better.laugh when there pissed.

I like a drink, but if I couldn't drink without having memory blackouts and having to be carried home, I would definitely be giving up booze. It sounds like it's making you really unhappy.

I also think that you need better friends if you're mates with people who tell you you're boring if you don't drink. I'd never, ever say that to any of my friends. Like I said - I like a drink but I am more than happy to be in the company of people who don't, and I would hate anyone to feel pressure to drink.

If drinking isn't enjoyable for you (and it doesn't sound like it is), don't drink.

It shouldn't be a problem for other people if you don't drink (though I can understand a slight nervousness that you'll be stone-cold sober judging and remembering exactly everything that's said when they're drunk) - but if it is just drive there and you've got the perfect reason to not have a single drink.

Thank you all!
I know you are right in what you are saying and I think I just needed the right words of encouragement to confirm what I already know,
I might offer to drive next time and see how everyone is towards me, and if there if any negativity one I can leave and maybe I need to reevaluate my friendship with these people.