I'm not really sure why I'm posting. I would really like some reassuring replies, and some support.
I start a new 'big girl' job tomorrow. I'm usually fairly calm and take things in my stride but I'm feeling on the verge of a panic attack. I am a single parent who has managed working full time since I went back to work after my maternity leaves and my children are primary school aged now.
I have stupidly left buying my season ticket to the last minute and didn't realise I couldn't buy one online without a smart card which will take 5 days to arrive so I'll have to buy a day ticket. More expensive but not end of the world but I'm catastrophising this.
I'm panicking about getting the kids out the door on time and to breakfast club. I've paid for an extra early session and that's all in hand, but I'm convinced I'll miss my train.
Then I'm thinking even if I get it, it'll be cancelled or delayed.
And I might make a total idiot of myself in this job. But there's no evidence of that. They've given me the bloody job, and everyone who knows me says I'll be great.
I think I must be having a wobble and putting all my anxiety in these tiny problems.
I bought a new necklace yesterday and can't find it anywhere and I'm uncharacteristically upset and blowing that out of proportion. I have gone through all the bags and even the bin and outside bin, and it's not anywhere. I'm in tears about it. It's so strange.
My heart is beating out of my chest. I can't concentrate on anything. I can't eat.
I have laid out the kids clothes, I've packed my bag, organised myself as much as possible.
What is wrong with me, is this normal. Can anyone talk me down. What should I do?