How to get through the night??

[OneBrightAzureBiscuit]

I’m so so angry!! I’ve been discarded by my boyfriend few nights ago like I was nothing! There’s previous threads on this but I’m just gonna blame myself and self loathe cos I don’t have the answers. He treated me like shit, was cold and snappy, horrible emotionally. He is not coming back and I am meant to just deal with this shit so I’m just gonna hate myself. Blame myself cos it’s my fault and a shortcoming otherwise he would have come back by now. I WANNA DIE. My life is a shit show. I know I’m done and never contacting him and resorting to permanent blame and depression and drinking but does anyone have any advice or tips to get through the night? I’m so angry I want to smash things after the abuse I’ve been put through then just discarded like trash. I DID BLOODY EVERYTHING! Cleaned his filthy fly ridden flat, spent my money on him like A MUG. It doesn’t hurt any less but does anyone have any tips on how to soothe the anger and upset and unanswered questions?? I’ve put down the bottle for now

Look for the positives. You will now have more money for yourself. More time because you're not cleaning his crap.
You got your life back!

You're angry about what could've been but actually, it never was.

I really don't think all these threads are helping now.

@Paramedic999 why? And nothing is happening I’m so angry, I’ve done everything and been so good to someone and then discarded like trash! This is my outlet

Channel that anger into something else if you can, write into a journal what a dirty, cunting piece of shit he is! Or make notes in your phone express it that way. Then tomorrow wake up and think right he's gone, it's done I'm soo much better off. It's a learning curve you know what you deserve and how you should be treated. Never contact him again and never engage with him again, he's a waste of space and you are well rid now! Focus on things you like for example hobbies, friends and seeing family, get your nails done or hair done or whatever you do to make yourself feel nice and feel good.

Don't even waste your time being angry at yourself it is unfortunately what it is but now you're out of that toxic situation. Time to move forward and plan for a more YOU future! 💪🏻🙌🏻

You don't need an outlet, you need to get off the booze, have a shower, eat something and go to bed.

Then tomorrow, you find a counsellor.

This is not a healthy reaction following the end of a 6 month "relationship".

Nothing is going to change by starting loads of different threads

It’s not really a reflection on you though is it? More of their own self importance. Perhaps you need to consider yourself a better person and that actually they’ve done you a favour, because you’re kind and giving good still be doing the same old shit forever, whereas now they’ve freed you and you can make sure you aren’t ever in that position again.

It's a waste of time hating yourself. What's done is done. He is gone. You have one life so why waste it being angry and going over old ground.

Start thinking about what you want out of life and make plans to do the things that you want to do. See your friends, take up new hobbies, exercise, cook yourself delicious food. The best revenge is living well and being happy. Make your life what you want it to be.

110% this! 🙌🏻🫶🏻

It was 6 months not 6 years perhaps he found you a bit too intense.