I have CPTSD from very abusive mother. She would never like presents I got her, even when little. And would watch my reactions like a hawk. I hate Christmas and gifts and giving gifts because of it.
I gave my boyfriend his gifts last night and I had just explained how anxious I was about the whole thing and him not liking them. And I felt sick and what she used to do and thats why I get so nervous.
I gave him a jumper and I said I was worried you wouldn't like the colour. He said its a lovely colour, shame it's a horrible top. I said oh no, really. He said I'm joking. You're doing that thing again. Over thinking. But then I was just worried he didn't like it.
I had asked our friend to text him and say what whisky is good if she were buying. So I get an idea what he liked. He said if you like one to taste like antiseptic get x and if you like a classy one, get x. Well they didn't have the classy one, but I got one the same price which was more expensive than the antiseptic.
When I gave it I said I've got the receipt if no good. He said well I do like the other (antiseptic) one but its fine. I'm not going to swap it for a few quid. Thank you. I said I didn't think you did because you said antiseptic and he said I like that. And I said oh sorry, I just went with the more expensive trying to go with the more classy one.
All in all I've come away feeling rubbish. And I don't get the joke after what I had just explained. Am I being too sensitive?