Feeling so anxious all of a sudden :(

[cheekycee]

Just wanted to chat really..
So in the last year I have gave birth, left an extremely abusive relationship in all ways, which reflecting on and discussing with a close family member I am pretty sure I was sexually abused (coerced into having penetration sex and oral sex every night when I can honestly say 5 nights out of 7 I wouldn't want it but if I didn't he would abuse me for 3 days straight😞)
I've lost my home (due to moving out of his house), gone back to work and now been told I am due to be made redundant.

My anxiety is slowly creeping back in and idk what to do. I feel like I'm slowing down in my body and mind after being in fight or flight for so long (3 years) that everything is catching back up with me and it's really upsetting me. I can't go under when I have my two babies to think about. Everything has changed in under a year and it's messing with my mind even more...

See your gp. You need help. But well done getting away.

You sound incredibly strong, going back to work, new baby and home in the past year. No wonder you feel overwhelmed. Hopefully someone with practical advice will come along shortly.
Well done getting rid of that piece of shit btw.

Try not to judge your feelings. You sound incredibly emotionally articulate and you understand that this is a bodily response to years of living in fight or flight. Plus you have just had a baby and about to lose a job. That is a lot to process. What support do you have? I wouldn't jump to assume you are going to go under but I would advise you to seek help so you have people around you who understand and can try and support you while the dust settles.
Well done for leaving and be gentle with yourself.