To think life is one long journey of emotional pain and starting to wander if it's all worth it

[FedUp2025]

OK never done this before...
Met my husband in 2009. 10 year IVF journey to have our one and only child. 8 failed rounds finally got lucky and son born 2019. Journey drove me to depth of despair many times. You'll know if you've been down this rd.
My son has additional needs and last few years been very stressful.

I desperately wanted a second child with our remaining frozen embryos...
But then bam. This year hubby gets diagnosed with terminal cancer. Came out of fucking no where. No symptoms. Not sure how long he's got we haven't asked but prognosis is crap.
Nothing to look foward to now but hubby getting more and more ill. And my sons needs getting more and more difficult.

I'm done. Is life really worth the pain? I don't think it is

Oh, that is so much to deal with, and I know there is likely nothing that can be said that will really help right now.

But if it helps to talk here, I'll sit and listen and offer a virtual handhold and hug.

And I would add that you are what's worth it and you deserve to be supported in any way you need. Do you have anyone around you who can be there with you? Xxx

@FedUp2025 Life can definitely be extremely hard.

I have a lot of people with mental health issues in my family.

My dad killed himself. And my brother has attempted suicide multiple times.

I think life is such a struggle.

It's hard for everyone. Everyone I know seems to have had some terrible death in their family.

I do think there should be more grief support for people.

Holding space for you OP - here if you need us xxxx

You poor thing, OP.

How are you doing @FedUp2025 ?

Sending love your way x

Hey, I don't normally post, but I couldn't read and run. I just want you to feel a little less alone in your situation.

The last 5 years have been awful for us. My husband has had cancer. We have failed four rounds of IVF. To top it all off, my one and only beautiful boy has leukaemia, and is undergoing 2 years of treatment.

Yes, it is hard, and sometimes overwhelmingly painful. I don't think people who haven't been through similar experiences can ever really understand. However, it is worth it. It is worth loving others, even if you lose them. You will get moments of joy that you can cling on to, and one day, you will move into easier times.

Oh darling. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine seeing my son go through this. I do feel less alone. But that probably isn't any comfort to you xxx

It's a bit of a cliche, but pain and grief are side effects of love x

Solidarity to all in the shitty club for all the reasons mentioned here x

We get through somehow don't we?

Yeah grief is very hard and it's a shock.

Grief can be very misunderstood I think. You don't just lose a person, you lose so many more things because everything changes and it's an unwanted change beyond our control and not of our choosing. And it can be applied in any circumstances that rock our very foundations, to varying degrees.

Space and time to process is vital, but the modern world gives us less time than ever to come to terms with things. Holding onto a sense of self in such situations is an exhausting task, especially when you have responsibilities that can't easily be shared.

I'm so sad to read this but I understand your feelings. Life can be very cruel. All I wanted was a baby because my childhood was rubbish. I wanted a family I guess. But my DS is profoundly autistic - non verbal. I have chronic and severe health issues. Now live alone and my DS is in an assisted living place. It could be worse I know, but I feel sad at how life has turned out. So I know how awful this loss of a vision, a dream, can be. Just keep going. Things can get better. Joy is found in the little moments - or at least that's what I've found. Lots of love to you.