Immediately.Right now.
for relevance i have cptsd-am ND. and me. HOWEVER- Life is/should be gradually getting better-but i consistently get trapped swinging from chaos-disaster-dysfunctional is a actual psitive cos-at least am up/involved..
i like with teen ds.-he also cptsd.ND(asd)-on road diagnsed arfid.
so-sno easy..
Both on masssive mh wait list.no family nearby.no other support.
So- I m in absolute pickle. Every chance am full throws of demand avoidance.
Am actully torturing myself at this stage.
I have ordered 2 gifts ,one here--other awol.
i have limited finances-but enough to buy more presents. This 3rd day in row/s 2 night as well i faff about- worse-ivv pretty much decide what want to buy.can even find items. Am being a total wee dick- hitting some sorta panic -totally irrational -sadly feels zakt same as valid panic..iv other stuff need to do. at increased risk i fk xmas right up.face already screwed up .I hate me.
i just need get to b\skt/buy..but no im have lay flat cos so rigid-my actual legs solid n sore-toes aatta point n i prob holding my breath alot.
Ds out thakfully- aimed t o sort shopy ut n try just be
its no hapening tho